Last summer afforded me lazy days and lots of fun. I got to spend a large portion of my time at the beach, traveling and pursuing leisure activities. This year will be filled with volunteering, summer school (online thank goodness), plus lots of work.
Don’t get me wrong, I would NEVER complain about opportunity. It is what the past 365 days have been anticipating. Nevertheless, my brain is ramping up to be overloaded with the business of life. I tend to be a methodical person so the idea of busy-ness conjures this visual image of a beehive-a bunch of honey bees swirling around doing this and that. I like order, peace, a controlled approach to things.
I realize I can have a full schedule and still maintain the peaceful existence that comes with an intentional life. It is what I do for Pete’s sake! The anxiety that presents itself is exactly that; My own fear. The sheer panic that somewhere, somehow I will fail. If I fail, then my efforts will have been wasted.
Now this is just ridiculous. Really, girl! Buck up and put your big pants on! You have been on this planet long enough to have learned how to gather yourself. But have I? There’s school and school work and tests and clients and housework and commitments and social events and exercise and…oh that blasted beehive is going again.
The truth of the matter is this, I don’t have to have it “all together”. Life is progressive. If I will stop being consumed with the thought and just be, just do, just exist in the moment IT will all fall in line being perfectly ordered as I am so gratefully accustomed.
That, is the lesson of last Summer. The lesson of fun. To live in the moment, even in that beehive. Those bees are not paying attention to anyone else’s buzzing-neither should we. Just existing in right now, right this second will be the most peaceful place. AHHHHH. Now the livin’ really is easy!
